I pray, "Lord, I believe!" But where my faith is lacking "help my unbelief".
I've prayed "Father, teach me where this line is" . But maybe there isn't a line at all. All this is in His hands. Yes, there is responsibility on my part but there isn't a line in between. Maybe the responsibility that is on me as a mom is also in His hands.
Stop trying to push your way through this day and rest in your Father's arms. Pour out your heart to Him every pain, every fear, don't hold anything back. Then let Him hold you when it hurts. Rest in Him and let His peace fill your heart. This peace doesn't mean you don't have things to do, things to be concerned about or even that the ache and weight of it all goes away. His peace comes in the middle of it all.
I woke up the next morning and the fear that had gripped my heart the day before was replaced with peace.
There are many times I look at my to-do list and calendar and feel overwhelmed. I've cried "God, I can't do all this..."
I recently studied through the I AM statements Jesus makes in the book of John. It is one of my favorite studies ...because I feel like I am sitting at the feet of Jesus listening to Him tell me Who He Is.
The Bible says "do not fear" 365 times.
But today I find myself in a place I know that I am afraid.
It seems like I am reliving a nightmare that I never wanted to be in the first time.
Most recently he has had bad dreams. As he wakes up and comes to me. One night as I walked him back to his bed he asked me "mom, can you pray and ask Jesus to give me good dreams?". "of course I can..." I said
Continuing the thought of exercising my faith from last week. What does exercising faith look like?
As I lay listening to it last night I realized it was me who had this timeline of when I wanted doors to open.
And I was discouraged because they aren't opening.
He is in the waiting
I know that I am more than just my kids' mom. But, I do so much for them and have spent so much time with them that I feel a little lost without them.
This is our (my kids and mine) 2nd year going to school. Last year was a good year, it was hard with paperwork, meeting, and diagnosis, but it was good. God took care of each of them, above and beyond I could have hoped or prayed for.
I wanted to share a great story of God's grace in my life. I wanted to share with you like we were sitting together talking. So, I made a video.
As I celebrate the marker of another Birthday it is a time of reflection of where I have been and how far I have come. It is also a time to look forward to goals I have now.
my little girl began singing this that day I listened closely as she said
“You are treasured, you are beautiful, in the eyes...in the eyes, of the one who made you.