In this middle of all the crazyness, all the doctor's appointments, and hopital stay, there was also a night of worship (we went to see Hillsong), Mother's day, Grace's Birthday and party, and awards both at school and church.
I have one friend whom I can not be thankful enough for. She has never been where I am but she listens and always has opens arms. She never tries to make feel better but always simply says; "He is walking with you"
My daughter was taking a shower and got soap in her eyes. She came out and told me "my eyes hurt, I can't pray". Then she came and laid her head on my shoulder and cried a little. Though she was crying it was her tears that would help her eyes feel better.
Whenever one of the kid's have a birthday it is a reminder of the blessing God placed in my life. But, there is something to be that makes me think a little deeper when they hit one of those milestone Birthdays. This year Grace turned 10!
My time with God is not something I can do with out. It is my life line! I wake up early just so I have my time to read and pray as I start the day.
Everything that happens in life isn't good however we have the promise that our God will use it for good (Romans 8:28). I'll be there first to admit that it can be very to see how good can come out of some situations.
A mircale that this condition is gone and even the doctor said "this doesn't happen". But, the bigger miracle isn't in the taking away the hard but that My God comes close and walks with me even in the hard. In what is now our everyday life.
onathan has been begging for a "big Bible" since before Christmas. I started looking around to see what would be good for him. This is what we found. Jonathan loves it! I love that he loves God's word!
I pray, "Lord, I believe!" But where my faith is lacking "help my unbelief".
I've prayed "Father, teach me where this line is" . But maybe there isn't a line at all. All this is in His hands. Yes, there is responsibility on my part but there isn't a line in between. Maybe the responsibility that is on me as a mom is also in His hands.
Tonight as he grabbed his Devo book he said (talking to himself) "I want to read one about being scared". He turned to the table of contents, found one and read it.
As Jonathan prays he will ask for Jesus to give him good dreams. Or when he gets up in the middle of the night he asks "mom, pray that Jesus will give me good dreams". This is the faith of a child, he believes that God is big enough to do anything and close enough to care.
Stop trying to push your way through this day and rest in your Father's arms. Pour out your heart to Him every pain, every fear, don't hold anything back. Then let Him hold you when it hurts. Rest in Him and let His peace fill your heart. This peace doesn't mean you don't have things to do, things to be concerned about or even that the ache and weight of it all goes away. His peace comes in the middle of it all.
My Oldest and youngest were born 5 years and 2 days apart. We've had a busy fun birthday week.
Even when you are walking through what may be the hardest of days there are always things to be thankful for and blessings all around us. You just have to remember to look for them.