This is one of my favorite things I have around the houses.
I love this table!
I am not really sure why I like it so much. Maybe because it is meant to look a little messy and I don’t have to make it look clean.
This little table that sits next to my easel and reminds me that in the mess the masterpiece is made. Some of these paint spots came with the table some are mine. I am messy when I paint. I pay attention to what I painting and little else.
Where I am today
Today I feel like a mess. Emotions are swirling around. We went to the park and I anticipated my kids running around enjoying the sprinklers. Instead, my son took one look at how many kids were there (it was Saturday and it was full) and sat down. I kept hoping that after a while he would get up and go play with his sister, but he never did.
I was hoping to take my younger ones to a nearby VBS this week while my oldest is at camp. But at the park, I was reminded of all that is going on right now in our life.
If I take Jonathan to a VBS he isn’t going to talk (just like at school). This will make it difficult for the VBS teachers. Then there is Grace, she doing well in a class but still needs extra help and someone to watch her more than other 9yrs old require.
I feel like that is asking a lot of people. I am their mom and part of that means taking care of them and all their different needs. At our church is a little different. It is our church family and I am close by. But how can I ask that of someone else?
I also don’t want to make Jonathan’s anxiety worse. VBS is only a few days and there isn’t much time to get used to it like school.
So, I’m seriously rethinking going to a VBS next week.
As I do this it kinda hurts. I know this what life is like for us right now. But this is still hard. It breaks my heart that I have to consider these things when taking my kids to VBS and today I’m a little sad.
I feel like a mess right now and I really don’t understand why all this is a part of our life.
~ What may look like a mess to us is God working ~
As I sat down to write this blog this verses came to mind. I can’t say it’s one I wanted to think about right now but it is one that I need to focus on.
Know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its perfect work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Today is hard but I will trust that God is at work. What looks like a mess to me is Him working. I believe God will bring a masterpiece together. I will cling to His promise that He works all things (even the hard days) together for good (Romans 8:28).
~ In the mess of the table, the masterpiece is made. ~
When I am the one painting and making the mess I love it. I have a vision in mind and I know it will be beautiful when it is finished. But I don’t often like the mess in my life.
God help me remember that I am your Masterpiece
Father, thank you that on hard days like today I can come to you and pour out my heart. You know that from my point of view I don’t understand why things are the way they are in my life. But, even when my heart is breaking I will trust you. Help me to remember that in the testing my faith is made stronger and that I am your masterpiece. Thank you for walking every step of this life with me.