This little summary of Isiah 48:11 is something I’ve watched God do this past year.
The Lord will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.
In 3 weeks we got 3 diagnoses and everything changed.
I thought I had worked through the hardest part of the school year but I was just getting started. Anna and Jonathan both have a severe hearing loss in both ears. This hearing loss has also contributed to Jonathan having selective mutism (a high anxiety).
In 3 weeks my world went from one that had some extra weight (with Grace’s needs) to a world where I didn’t believe I could do all that would be needed in the coming days.
There were tears as I cried out to God: “This isn’t fair… I already deal with so much with Grace. Why them too? I can’t do this…”
BUT GOD – where He guides, He provides
With the weight of now having not one but multiple, with not some but all my children having some kind of special needs, I cried out to my God, My Father.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9a
This is a verse that has spoken deeply to my heart in this season. One that I’ve sat with and I’ve studied.
There is something about all my children having some kind of special needs that is very heavy. My God, my Father, tells me “My grace is sufficient…” and in my weakness, His “power is made perfect” (2 Corinthians 12:9). When I say “I can’t do all this” I am right, I can’t. But it is here in my weakness where His power is made perfect and He can and He does what I can not do.
At this time last year, I didn’t know what was ahead of us. Our world, my world, changed there were some challenges that were expected and some that were not. I have seen that where God guides, He provides. Even in this year that has been full of challenges, there have been blessings.
Anna and Jonathan now wear hearing aids in both ears. Jonathan is going to therapy to help him work through his selective mutism.
One of the blessings God has put into my path is Jonathan’s teacher. She is a wonderful teacher, a mom with a son who has hearing loss and a Christian. Jonathan did so well in her class this year. She was so patent with him and when learning of his hearing loss was able to do little things to help him.
Our coordinator is another blessing. I had never done any special education paperwork for school before. She patiently helped me with all I needed to do for Grace. She has such a sweet spirit to her and I wasn’t too surprised when I found out she is a Christian as well. We got to know each other as I then had more paperwork and meetings for Anna and Jonathan in the spring. I am thankful for all that she has done for my kids (and me) this year. I am also thankful she has become a friend.
I have wonderful friends who support me, encourage me and pray for me.
God has also blessed me with a couple new friends who have come alongside me and helped me. Not only are they knowledgeable they are fellow believers, Sisters. Just having them around is an encouragement. These are a reminder that God see where I am, I am not alone He is with me and so are these.
Father, this has been a time of expected challenges and unexpected challenges but you have been with me every step. I didn’t know what was ahead but you did and you provided before I even knew to ask. Thank you that where you guide you provide. I pray that where you lead I will continue to follow. Thank you for sisters who have supported, hugged me, encouraged me and prayed for me throughout this school year. Thank you most of all for Who You are, My Father
the one who is my comforter and my strength