Even the Wind & Waves obey Him

Time of Change

In the last few months, God has turned my world upside down.

I went from the busiest year homeschooling; Kindergarten, 2nd grade (with special needs) and 5th grade (okay, she kinda taught herself a lot) to God opening a door for all 3 kids to go to a charter school this fall.

As a mom/teacher of a child with special needs, I am constantly taking note of how Grace was doing.

Last school year was the first time I have seen my daughter work so hard to learn and still struggle.

At the same time, I was seeing many things click for my son.

It is one of those moments that makes you say “it’s not fair!” and that was really hard for me as a mother.

I know to expect this with her diagnosis but it still doesn’t make it any easier, God let me be very uncomfortable.

I’d been there before and before it has meant He put a friend in my path, another homeschool mom, with a word of encouragement and at other times it has meant He gave me time with a friend who works with special needs classes.

This time I found myself looking into programs that might help her.

I landed on a website for a charter school not far from us.

I liked their program for special needs as well as the way the whole school is set up.

We applied late in the year and got put on a waiting list. I continued to learn about the school and meet with people there. As I prayed for direction, there was peace about sending the kids here but we were on that long waiting list.

Made A Way

I gave it all over to God and said: “if this is where you want them then you will make a way”.

I left it at His feet, summer came and I didn’t expect to hear anything from the school.

I was surprised when I got a call in July saying there was a place for Jonathan (my son) in the school!

This wasn’t the campus I applied for but another just a little further.

We decided to go for it, Anna my 6th grader got in right away and Grace got in a few days later.

God made a way!

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Today is the start of the 2nd week of school.

I met with the special ed coordinator today, she is very nice and is doing a good job of getting things together for Grace.

One of the things that has to be done for Grace is that she will go through an evaluation.

They will be looking at all the things she knows and what she will need help with.

This is something I know needs to be done and I want to be done as soon as possible.

However, this also stirs up a lot of emotions in me, it’s hard. This is my baby you are talking about!

Why are you afraid?

After my meeting today, I was driving home, I found myself thinking about when Jesus was asleep in the boat and a storm came.

The disciples come and wake Jesus up saying “teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” (1).

This was no little storm, many of these were experienced fishermen they’d seen storms before.

Scripture describes this storm a furious “squall” (2), “a great storm” (3).

In Greek word means; wind, storm, hurricane, whirlwind. This was a big storm and it frightened these fishermen.

Scripture says that waves were coming over the boat and it was taking on water.

This is when the disciples cry out to Jesus. Jesus gets up and calms the storm with His very words “Peace, Be still!”(4).

This word Jesus’ uses for “still” is the Greek word phimoö it means “to muzzle, to silence, to be quite (5), like a mother quieting her noisy children.

Jesus then turns to the disciples and says “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”(6).

Oh, how much He must say this to me!!!

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 Just like His word calmed the storm on the sea that night His word calmed the storm inside of me.

The Storm In Me

Today I had a storm of emotions raging inside of me and while I know better I still ask “do you care??? and who am I that you would care about something so small?”.

But, God shows Himself when we take the time to just listen.

I left the school with peace, once again He showed me He has Grace right where He wants her and He is taking care of her.

This is my peace; not that she is in the hands of man but in the hands of God, she is His before she is mine.

Just like His word calmed the storm on the sea that night His word calmed the storm inside of me.

My peace and strength come from knowing that everything is under His control, “even the wind and the waves obey him!” (7).

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Father, thank you that you are a Good Father! Thank you for walking with me through every moment of my life. Nothing is too small that you do not care. You know everything that brings me joy, every hurt and what makes me feel afraid. Sometimes following Your lead means situations that are hard and uncomfortable. Step by step may I follow as you lead. Thank you for Your Word that calms the storms. Even the wind and the waves obey you, nothing is beyond your control. When I feel overwhelmed and alone may I turn to Your Word that will calm the storm inside of me.

In Jesus name, I pray, Amen


1Mark 4:38 NIV
2Mark 4:37 NIV
3Mark 4:37 KJV
4Mark 4:39 KJV
5“Phimoö” 5821 Zondervan NIV Exhaustive Concordance 2nd edition
6Mark 4:40 NIV
7Mark 4:41 NIV
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